So, I'm a little bit back to "normal"... Thinking about what to do first to work on my problem, although I'm still rather clueless and moody.
I will start taking tiny steps...
Will probably work on getting a license soon, at least... That will make me feel a little more "civilized" and less hermit-ish. Perhaps getting a job/going to college will be easier after that... And maybe I will get some therapy somewhere in-between, if the stress becomes unbearable, I'll see how I will do. Although I don't want to take medication... I hope I would get therapy without all that crap. I'm not a big fan of the pharmaceutical industry and psychological labels etc., but I suppose I'll seek help if I can't cope with college at all.
I don't even know if I really have social phobia/anxiety, it's just a self diagnosis after all. But I do have the symptoms and it's interfering with my life big time, so I guess getting help wouldn't be a bad idea...

I really have to thank everyone for all the kind words, advice and support and for sharing their own experiences with me. I'm glad I'm not all alone in this, although I'm also sorry for everyone who has or had to experience such fears... I never expected that so many of my friends have or had similar problems. It was interesting, but also a little alarming... Especially that so many had to experience bullying at some point in their lives.
This really makes me hate humanity again, so many people don't give a damn if they hurt others. Bullying can ruin a person's life or at least change it for the worse. And bullied people hardly ever get any real help when they need it or some teachers just refuse to see it, even when it happens right in front of their eyes.
I wish I could do something to change this crappy school system, but I fear there will always be assholish kids and there is not much one can do about it.

Anyway, I got a Facebook account some time ago... [link] If any of my friends here are on Facebook too and are interested, then they can add me. But please tell me your deviantArt name when you do, I want to know who I'm adding. Also, please understand that I'll only add people I'm familiar with and please only add me if you are honestly interested in being my friend and not just for the fun of it.

(And to those who are wondering why I never fave or comment: Yeah, I still haven't cleared out my deviations inbox. I know, it's crazy to wait so long with this, but I can't help it, no motivation and too many other things to worry about. XP)

Ok, bye!